i was acting on faith when i took that leap.
we jumped into the deep and treaded.
for a very
we worked so
hard, you and i.
in the end
you were more important
i tried to hold or
i felt i needed to prove
(fear i resisted facing...).
hands down no doubt about it.
i was acting on faith.
but today as i hold you in my arms with your head upon my chest and your sleep-sweaty hair sticks to your pinky cheek so that i may gaze at you for a long time and marvel,
i reach back in time to one year ago
in that utterly exhausted mommy's ear:
"it's worth it!"
you're worth it. you're worth all of it. all of that.
somehow i feel as if i must have heard.
and the vision
of how it
i gave in
i closed my eyes and went down.
and you came up for air.